On The Road Again

Here it is early morning, and I’m propped up in bed writing you.  This is usually what happens … these notes come up and just want to be written down and shared with you.  It’s a mystery as to who is writing this and to whom and who is there to receive them.  But, here it goes anyway.

As I woke up, it all started with this little tune singing in my head … “On the road again” … then came a memory of Ramana singing this, as we headed out together in the new motor home.  It was about 20 years ago.  We had just gotten this 32-foot motor home and we had my car in tow.  It was the first time going out in this big rig and Ramana was going to take it out onto the highway and then hand it over to me.  I was very nervous about handling it by myself and he was very supportive in giving me this opportunity to get used to it before going on my own.  This was the time that I had been travelling quite a bit, giving talks and workshops throughout the southeast.   I started with my car, then moved up to a small RV and then moved up to the large rig to accommodate longer times out and a larger storage for books etc.

These are sweet memories of days gone by, that were filled with so much richness.  The thirty-two years with Ramana was much like what happened with this new experience with the motor home.  It was all uncharted territory for me when I met him … the spiritual discovery was just beginning.  He was a very supportive guide.  One that was always there in the sidelines and yet gave me the space to discover, on my own, what was the best route to take.  There were many times that I just wanted him to take over the reigns because it was so unfamiliar to me and pretty scary.  There was so much relying on it.  And, he insisted, “If I did it for you, now, then you wouldn’t have the opportunity to discover it for yourself, would you?”  This was so wise and has proved to be true.

Over this past ten months, here in this lovely space by the sea, I have had an opportunity to see the treasures that were so fully being given during this 32-year relationship with my teacher, Ramana.  This time of “stop” has not only nurtured this body and given back its sound health, but it has given me this opportunity of seeing as well.  This 32-year period was very similar to one of those fast trains you would see in Europe … much like a bullet that you can hardly see when it goes by.  Over this time period, the “train” slowed down to a stop and all that was discovered over this time with Ramana, was being fully seen.  What a treasure!   All of it!

Now, this apparent movement is beginning to take me in another direction.  One that is away from this place and “on the road again.”  There is no hesitancy to allowing this movement to take me wherever IT wants to take me.  The surrender into the Current is complete.  Truthfully, the body is moving but, actually, it doesn’t feel like I’m going anywhere.

Another scene is coming up, from days gone by … Ramana and I are driving down the highway.  He’s in the driver’s seat (he loved to drive) and he said to me, “It looks like we’re driving somewhere, doesn’t it? Look at the road ahead.  Isn’t it coming to us?  And, are we not just sitting here, not moving, in this car?  Are we moving, really?  It just looks that way, but what is the truth about it?”

It’s all coming into view and making perfect sense.

Thank you, Ramana.  You have made your mark … the Light of Truth has been passed on … the message is clear ...

“Simply stay in the Higher Awareness.  You can do that.  Now, that you have the “means” and “the way” to do that, it’s entirely up to you.  It’s your responsibility to do that.  You can’t put the blame on anyone or anything outside of yourself, because there is no one outside of yourself!  You can’t even see anyone unless there is an “I” to see him or her.  And, that “I” that is seeing “them” cannot even see without the prior Awareness – the true Self – out of which it takes rise.  So, there is no “other.”  The notion of a separate “I” is itself entirely conceptual!  In truth, it does not exist!

We are all this Pure Awareness of Being – that’s who we have always been – but we have been indulging in the conditioned patterns of the conditioned “sub conscious mind, or “inner child of the past,” and with it and the conscious mind we’ve been meditating this separate-self-identity, by indulging in this contrived ego notion, this perpetual  “I-me-my-mine” mantra, and further reinforcing this limitation of “I-me-my-mine” and evidently “getting off to it” in a very sick way. 

Just get this!  See it by simply “seeing” it – not as an “I” seeing it – but pure Seeing Itself seeing it.  

See it and be Happy!”

Namasté